I'm so sorry

I'm sorry how I feel right now
I'm sorry most days I’m alive
I'm sorry about how my soul is bleached
And I’m sorry about how I arrive
I'm sorry that I dragged you in
I'm sorry it was you
I'm sorry that I imposed
But what else could I do
I'm sorry that I don't want to go on
I'm sorry that life's a thorn
I'm sorry that I brought you in
I'm sorry that I’ve felt scorn
I'm sorry about who I am
I'm sorry about wrongs placed on you
Around you I feel close to bliss
That, I hope you, long ago, knew
I wish I could take away my pain
Even if it was only for a day
I'm sorry that I’m not good enough to do that
I wish I could make it any other way
I'm sorry that I get mad at you 
I'm sorry I feel hurt
Because sometimes you'd rather be with your friends
And leave me idle within a desert of dirt
I'm sorry that I feel this way
I know different you must feel
But, god damn it, that is life, 
What a shitty deal
I'm sorry that you can’t change a thing
I'm sorry that’s probably true
Maybe you would change it all
But removing me from it all for a little while, is all that you do
Maybe I'm just a whiner
Maybe a weak little prick
I guess there isn’t a single reason why I should live
But I'll continue right on, like mud with a stick
I'm sorry I’ll probably never be really anything
I'm sorry that is how I am
I'm sorry that God isn’t smiling
But maybe I’m the new sacrificial lamb