Blind As A Pup

Alone... same old
It feels so cold
That's me though
It's something which out of, I can't grow
Sure I was born in a pair
Did it continue? It did not dare
So I'm alone
It's my way to atone
Against my will?
Sure... Yes... How do I stop it? Do I kill?
Myself? Why not?
Mean nothing to the whole lot
Of you... Of everyone
Though I'm a brother, and a son
Let me die... Let me say... "Good-bye"
Below the ground, I should lie
Why continue? Why fight?
All that is left of me is spite
Take me away. Take my feelings away
With my life, let me pay
How can I write... about love?
I only get to see it from around, or above
Not for me
You must believe... or at least see
This is not my world. How could I stay?
I feel worse and worse each day
Life was never my friend
Not even to the bitter end
I'd love just to die
But then I won't go to the sky
My home is up there
Doing my own death, and getting up there is rare
Dying causes pain
Though your face wouldn't rain
But death would hurt
And your life would invert
Upside down, right side up
Tis the way of a newborn pup
Feeling alone, can't see... blind
Haven't been able to see for so long
It's right for me to be like this... not wrong
Everyone I reach out to... pushes me down
Pushing my smile, into a frown
Suicide is like a shotgun blast
Happens so quick... too fast
Hit everyone, even if they don't care
Not hurting them... physically, not harming a hair
Hearts are hurt, just like mine
But theirs would go away, they'd be fine
To die, takes more courage then to live
So to death, I shall not dive
I don't have what it takes
Though my heart shakes
I shall not die
Then I can't go to the sky