Caring About You

I wish I didn't care about you
Well, that's not really true
I wish I didn't care as much
But then, I can't really say such
Every moment I am away
Seems to last longer then a day
And that's what I have which to deal
That's why I wish I didn't care as much... the pain is a lot to feel
It's cold where I am
My heart feels like a lump of coal
It's pulling me down and I can't stop it
I've fallen into that hole
Lights burn my eyes
I don't know why
Stomach is in a knot
It's hard to swallow
It's hard to breathe
I just don't know why
Why do I feel this...?
Why do I feel like everything I do is wrong
What good have I really ever done?
I've helped you
I guess that’s what you'd say
I don't know if that's enough for you though
I just want to do something... perfectly
I don't know if I ever will though
So I'm left here
Wishing away the pain
Throw a penny into the well
Close your eyes
Tell no one
You must care for me
Or else... you wouldn't deal with it
Am I really worth the time you put in?
What if I'm a lost cause?
...I’m just an idiot.